Hello everyone again.

A couple of months ago my good friend and I were talking over the phone and during our chat we discussed how we both look for the “perfect” time to talk to one another. Neither of us want to inundate the other with things we are going through. Neither of us want to be a burden to the each other. She deals with things on her own and so do I. Our behaviors created a situation where we don’t talk to one another for weeks at a time. We made the decision to not wait for a “perfect” time to talk to each other because there will almost never be a “perfect” time.

After that conversation I began to think about this blog. I realized as long as I am waiting for the perfect time, the perfect look, the perfect anything, I am not getting anything done and time slips away. In Julia Cameron’s book Walking in This World, she writes “you must start somewhere and that is the sticking point.” Yes, I want my blog to look beautiful. Yes, I want to write long lovely posts. I can’t do either if I never start.

My main problem is I am holding myself back because of resistance, shame, perfectionism and fear. The overall feeling is fear. But exactly am I afraid of? Well, there is a list of things I am afraid of. I fear the unknown. I fear success. I fear failure and I fear being wrong. And I know if I don’t move out of my comfort zone, I don’t have to fear anything. If I just talk about my dreams and not chase them, I’m safe, right?

The comfort zone is a beautiful place. It has all the tools needed to stay content (even the maladaptive ones). It’s complete with a place to lay, some snacks to eat and a scenic view. And because it is so cozy, it is hard to leave. However, to reach for the stars one has to leave comfort behind and begin.

With this blog I have had some stutter steps. I’ve started. I’ve stopped. I’ve restarted and drove a few feet, then stopped again. This time around will be different. I will no longer overwhelm myself with blog design decisions or monetization. I’m just going to start where I am. So, with that, hello everyone, again. My name is Meka. Welcome to my blog. It is a work in progress and as I evolve, this blog will evolve. Thanks for stopping by and I hope you come often so I can share my love of books and reading with you.